Ender's game, and perhaps my life

Ender

Battle school
Commander of Dragon
Commander of man’s fleet
Unknowingly
Condescended upon the tainted halls of tainted adults
“Psychoanalysing” sister, brother, superiors, inferiors,
Quashing Lives of millions
like a little boy upon millions of a little alien ant colony
Think strategies
Manipulating and being manipulated
I’m an instrument of man
I’m never born

Foolishly, writhingly, desperately,
I hallucinate that
I’m a child of 11
Lying in bed, foolishly, writhingly, desperately
Close my eyes
where I can
Ever hope to
Wake
A child again